Gospel Citizen

Grant talked today about what it means to be a Gospel citizen.

What does that mean?

Well I took it to mean that you, as a christian, act like one. You are a fragrance of Christ, you are obedient to the Father, you are humble in the talents that He gave you, you truly believe that Christ is your saviour,

I'm sure I could go on.

This got me asking, 'Am I a Gospel citizen? Do I show the work of the Lord in me? Do I walk down the hallway at school, and people automatically know that I live my life for the Lord?'

No... 

I want so badly to be able to say that I do, but that wouldn't be the truth. 

I wish that I thought about giving the glory to God in everything that I do and say, but that wouldn't be the truth.

I want so badly to be able to say that I'm content with who I am as a christian, but that wouldn't be the truth.

In reality, I'm a horrible sinner that doesn't deserve any forgiveness at all.

But because of the amazing thing that Jesus did, I am forgiven. 

I'm forgiven from everything that I've ever done. For how stupid I've been when I give in to the prideful thinking that Satan pushes on me. 

Because God the father sacrificed his own, precious son, I can enter into the gates of Heaven.

That's absolutely mind boggling. 

Two weeks ago Grant talked about the perspectives of the cross. And I started thinking about how I feel when I sin. If I even do anything tiny, I feel so guilty and horrible. Then I thought about how Jesus would have felt on the cross. As he hung there, suffocating, he was bearing the entire worlds sins. The entire world, universe! Billions of times worse than anything I or anyone else has ever had to deal with. This realization kinda gave me a new, greater respect and love for our saviour.

I don't really know the point of this post, but I thought that I should share what's been going through my head lately.

-regan