College...

From the perspective of a teenage girlwhose brother just left home, College sucks...

Saying goodbye to everyone else was hard, really hard.

And I knew this would be harder.

And I was right...

If you haven't guessed by now, we just finished moving Beau into temporary housing. 

And now I am sitting in the car on my way home.

It seems really odd that Beau won't be coming home for about three weeks, and he's leaving again. That's how long he was in Ireland! I missed him a lot then! But I knew he was going to come home, and now I just have to get used to it. Its going to be really weird...

and quiet  :)

So, to sum up my day,

I left my house this morning at nine-ish,

Drove 2 1/2 hours to Duluth,

Beau moved in,

we went to Applebee's,

checked out the area a little,

said goodbye,

and now I'm an only child...

October 5th, 2002

June 17th, 2004

I'm going to miss him a lot...

Happy Birthday Dad!

Thank You!

For everything that you've done for me,

For all the Canoe Trips,

For all the Classical Music education! :)

And for being an amazing Father!

Love you!

Happy Birthday!

Its Hard to Say Goodbye...

Last night was the last time before school that everyone went swing dancing. It was really fun, but also extremely depressing. I had to say goodbye to the seniors, and Scotty. 

After dancing, we all stood out in the parking lot to say our goodbyes. We ended up in a big circle praying for a long time. During that time, I finally had an, "Oh my gosh, they're actually leaving..." moment. I had always thought about when they were going to leave, now they were actually Leaving. It was the last time I would see any of them till thanksgiving, or even later.

That night I was thinking about how now that the seniors are gone, and once Beau leaves I'm going to feel so alone and left behind. Amazingly enough, I was listening to Mainstay...

You went down the darkest roads

And I know just how it feels to lose your home

But don't give up on everything

When everyone has given up on you

And feels like everyone has left you

You're not alone

I hear your call

I've been waiting here for you through it all

You're not alone

Come to the Cross

Let me show you where your heart belongs

You're not Alone

I will never leave you

Come back to open hands

To the only love you need

That gave me a sense of hope, that after all our friends and family leave us, we still won't ever be alone. God is always there for us.

Deuteronomy 31:6

"Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you."

Michael, Gabby, Luke, Elise, Scotty, and Alli...

You guys have been such a big part of my life for the past couple years, and I am going to miss you all so much. I pray that you will find strong christian relationships, and will keep in touch. 

Musicals

I watched Singing in the Rain last night. Probably one of the best movies of all time! Great cast + great plot + great songs = Amazing movie! I wish that life was a musical. In musicals, things are so much easier to say! For example, in Singing in the Rain, when Don is trying to tell Kathy that he loves her, he can't say it, so he sings it! :)

The other thing is that when you watch these videos, listen to the tapping, and watch their feet. Its hard to see with such bad quality, but its incredible! What God given talent! I wish I could do that. They should make more movies like this. Good, clean, fun, amazing movies!

Guess what I'm getting on thursday?????

Braces... Something that I need, but really don't want. If this had happened a couple years ago, I might have been excited. But ever since Beau had his, I'm definitely not looking foreword to it. Beau had this reaction thing that did not seem pleasant, I really don't want that. The other thing is that I have all four wisdom teeth, and I'm really afraid of going under and having surgery. I don't know why. I've never been put under before, but it sounds pretty scary. But there is still the possibility that I might get to keep them. (I've been praying for that solution) I know that I shouldn't be scared about either braces or going under because God is in control, but I'm still not happy or excited about it. I know this will help with my smile, so I guess I have to go through with it.

Ugh...

Creation

Yesterday Audie and I went on a walk to the falls. We do this all the time, but for some reason this time, I was very aware of my surroundings. Its simply amazing how God takes a small ordinary thing, like a bush, and make it beautiful by putting the sun in the right place, and having a butterfly fly by. I was noticing how much of an artist God really is and that we should be thankful. And then I thought of Heaven. If I thought that this was beautiful, Heaven will be absolutely amazing!

Favorite Quote

"Religion says I obey and therefore I am accepted by God,
Christianity says I am accepted through christ therefore I obey."

~ Tim Keller

Living Prayer

Alison Krauss has an amazing song called A Living Prayer. It talks about how we would have nothing in this world if it weren't for God. The chorus is the best part.

In Your love I find release
A haven from my unbelief
Take my life and let me be
A living prayer, my God to Thee

My main goal in life is to live for God. One reason why I love this song is because it reminds me that in order to have the courage to live that way, I need help from God. Its encouraging to know that I have someone there to hold onto.